Krissy's Blog; Rants, Stories, Thoughts and Feelings

Maybe some of you don't know it, but I often go through periods of mild to moderate anxiety. Anxiety at this level isn't something I've ever experienced until earlier this year, and although it doesn't come on frequently, when it does it seems to stop me in my tracks. I know I am not alone.  Because (according to the internet) it's Mental Health week, I wanted to share my experience with anxiety and depression. I have never been to anyone for a diagnosis so this is a self-diagnosis and I could be a little off...but I feel it is anxiety. I think living abroad in Korea makes a lot people a bit more worried or conscious about things we never even considered before. For example, being Canadian, before coming to Korea I had never once had to pay for health care. I never had to worry about going a little too often and paying for those visits. I often avoid going until I really need to, even if I am worried about what ever the problem is, making me even more worried tha...

  Recently I have really been thinking about my future, and have been getting asked about it often too.  When are you going back to Canada/coming home? Are you going to go back to school? Will you continue teaching in Canada? Why are you still in South Korea?   The more people ask me the more frustrated I get.  The simple answer to most of the questions is.. I don't know! No, I still haven't made a plan during my time here in Korea, but who says I have to?    I've been really thinking about the quote above lately.  I know that is not what I am meant to do on this earth. Some people are perfectly happy with (what I think of as) the standard way of life.  Go to university/graduate school, get a job to have a career, get a house, get married, have kids, go through the motions, retire and eventually die. While I don't judge nor blame anyone for wanting this kind of life, I don't think I need to take all of these steps for my life to be successf...